Don’t Let Anyone Shame You For Your Financial Journey

pexels-photo.jpgDuring a tough time, a friend asked me how I was doing  and I deflected with my usual disclaimer. I said it was tough but I acknowledged that people were suffering much more than me. There was hunger and there was death and disease.

I wasn’t saying this just to be polite. In fact, I was incredibly embarrassed by how difficult things were for me. I shamed myself often, telling myself, c’mon Lisa, get over yourself. People are fighting wars and running for their lives and you have stupid X, Y, Z problems. Anyone would be happy to have your silly problems.

My friend, though, saw right through me. He said, that’s a terrible way to look at it. Acknowledging that I have problems is not the same as discounting other people’s problems. We are not in a competition for who has it worst.

His message has stuck with me. In fact, after I started letting myself wallow in a carefully regulated amount of self-pity, I finally got over it. I think discounting my  emotions as silliness held me back. I spent all this time shaming myself and not enough time figuring stuff out.

Sometimes I follow the same pattern when I talk about my financial journey.

I have a high income. I have quite a bit of savings. So when I feel inadequate that people younger than me have saved so much more, have higher incomes or have already bought multiple houses, I tell myself, well there are people who are worried about losing their house or their job or their kids. My worries are inconsequential, I think. But that’s the wrong approach.

It’s ok if your problems are really hard for you.

I don’t have to have the biggest problems in the world for them to be valid. I don’t have to have the best story in the world to own my story. Being honest about my floofy problems and my true story might be helpful to someone else. But nothing good is going to come from me tamping down my problems and my story.

I don’t have the biggest problems but they are my problems and I’m figuring out how to deal with them. I don’t have to compete on problems with anyone else.

But won’t treating my small potato problems like big problems indicate a lack of self-awareness? Isn’t that the kind of thing that should be ridiculed? Look, if someone is trying to diminish or one-up you on your problems, then let them diminish or one-up you and then find some other people to talk to. If someone is telling you your problems don’t matter, then they don’t care about you. My friends, who are all saints in my opinion, still care about what problems I’m going through even when they have their own setbacks. And I care about their problems so why can’t I care about mine?

This will sound very unproductive, but I hereby give you all permission to wallow in your problems. Don’t be obnoxious about it but don’t be dismissive either.

Shame isn’t the answer.

I heard this story on a podcast. This woman slept around quite a bit and she was ashamed of herself for doing so. But, she figured, at least she felt the shame. If she didn’t feel the shame, then she knew she was really far gone. Later, however, when she learned to accept herself and her actions without the shame, she found she didn’t want to sleep around anymore. So paradoxically it was the shame over doing the things that she didn’t want to do that kept her doing them. In fact, rather than preventing her from doing something worse, it was the shame that was the instigator of it all.

It’s a bit funny that all of us can feel ashamed of our finances, of where we’ve come from, of where we are or where we’re going. And maybe we justify all of it by stating that at least we know we’re wrong or privileged or a spendthrift and we feel badly about it. Maybe that’s not the right approach at all. Maybe the first step in everyone’s financial journey is saying, this is how I feel and that’s ok. I’m ok for feeling these things.

And maybe what follows is that we need to forgive the past and everyone that played a role in the mistakes that were made. Of course, forgiving everyone includes forgiving ourselves.

Forgive yourself for having privileges that others didn’t have. Forgive yourself for not having the privileges that others had. Forgive yourself for not saving as much as you wanted, making investment mistakes, not making a high enough salary, making too high a salary for what you do, for anything unethical you’ve done, for anything unethical done to you, for any jealousy that you’ve harbored against anyone else.

Forgive yourself for having problems. Then wallow. Then fix it or get over it and then go help someone else.

14 thoughts on “Don’t Let Anyone Shame You For Your Financial Journey

  1. And that is as good a differentiator as I’ve seen between Boomers and Millennials. Boomers message has always been “Suck it up Buttercup” and Millennials, “permission to wallow granted”. I’m not saying which, if either, is right but they are drastically different approaches. I’ve got three millennials kids, all successfully launched into careers but there is no doubt that compared to their parents they are so so affected by their emotions and see us as impenetrable stoic rocks with no emotions at all.

    1. My parents were pretty stoic but I sense that the stoicism is starting to break down. There’s a lot of pent up emotion there. There’s got to be some middle ground between “suck it up buttercup”, and living in wallow. Maybe Gen Z will figure it out. =D

  2. Thanks for this post. I am pretty blessed when it comes to income and having low monthly expenses, but I still feel like i’m struggling. I feel shameful for being hard on myself and wallowing, but small doses of it isn’t bad!

  3. I think shame, or other negative emotions like depression/guilt/etc, have a way of keeping you in their grasp because you feel like if you finally break free of them and be truly happy, something bad is going to happen. At least I know I have a history of feeling this way.
    Like: Okay, I’m actually contented right now–what is going to happen to take this feeling away from me? This is too good to be true.
    But if you stay in that wallowy stage, it’s less disappointing if something bad happens because then it’s just par for the course. You don’t have far to fall. Hope this makes sense.

    1. Totally agree that shame and guilt are like traps that are difficult to escape from. And joy is a tenuous situation and people feel like they should be ready for the bottom to fall out but what if we just held onto joy and didn’t fear for the bottom to fall out? It’ll fall out eventually but why do we have to spend time fearing it?

      Thanks for commenting!

  4. It’s a powerful message, Lisa, and I agree with you (just this once). Shame keeps us stuck in the past and unable to evolve. Well written article. Congrats on the Camp FIRE feature!

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