Today I will tell you how a tiny bit of success ruined my life (or just derailed my blog). If you check out the archives, you’ll see that this blog was started in 2016. I didn’t start writing regularly, however, until October. Starting in the middle of October of 2017, I tried to write everyday. I didn’t quite make it, but I created enough of a habit that I posted more in November than any month before or after. It felt good building the habit.
Then in late November, I got featured in Rockstar Finance. I can tell you honestly that was not the goal because I didn’t know regular sites got featured on Rockstar Finance. But with that feature, my middling viewership skyrocketed, even if only for a few days. But the surge had a profound effect on me. I changed from thinking, I’m just writing for myself, to, I COULD BE POPULAR. And for a hot second, I chased popularity. I read up on SEO and (ugh) Pinterest. I tried social media, which was great because 1) I finally could claim some Millennial cred and 2) I met some cool people and 3) had very cool experiences like attending CampFi on a last minute ticket. I’ve even set up some interviews with people I met on Facebook that will soon become posts. All in all, I don’t regret social media the way most people do.
But I found that the social media and other activities were distracting me from what I really wanted – which was writing. Yes, the number of people visiting my blog went up a lot, but I only made 6 posts in April, the lowest number I’ve done in 6 months. I’ve heard that successful bloggers focus more on marketing than writing and I’m sure that’s true but that’s not my vision of success.
I think some people may be misled to think that I’m trying to make my blog popular and then monetize like every other personal finance blogger. I mean, I wouldn’t hate it (the monetization anyway, though I’m terrified of popularity) but the overarching reason I write is because writing benefits me.
I have a lot of stories I want to tell. I have 165 drafts in my inbox that represent posts that I’m trying to write. When I started writing my blog, I had 150 drafts. Rather than diminishing, the number of drafts has increased because I haven’t finished them and I keep adding more. My blog wasn’t accomplishing its mission of inbox zero.
I have to remember (sorry readers) that this blog is for me. I mean, I hope it’s helpful to you too, if only in that I encourage you to write more. For instance, here are some ways that writing has helped me:
- It helps me store memories and experiences away like Dumbledore. It’s just a relief that I don’t have to remember everything in this tiny little mind I have. Without my journal and my blog, my life would just pass me by and I wouldn’t spend the time to reflect on my experiences or learn from them.
- It helps me synthesize thoughts and ideas and organize my thoughts.
- It has helped me to connect with others. It’s been lovely reading comments.
- Writing helps me remember the things I read in the tons of books I read per year. Otherwise it’s all in one ear out the other.
- It helps me chart my progress. It’s amazing when people take pictures of themselves every day for years – you can see the changes as they happen.
Writing down your thoughts is like seeing your mind change. It doesn’t always seem like we are changing but we are, often subtly. If we don’t make a record of who we were before, we might fail to see the progress and think we aren’t getting anywhere. It’s very difficult to take a picture of your mind though – but writing can help take a snapshot of who you were at this period of time.
- It helps exercise the creativity and self-expression muscles.